I Cried


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Yesterday I cried. Hard. So hard that for a moment it actually scared me.

I didn’t want to go to a deep, dark place so my first thought was, “Omg, stop crying!” It desperately crossed my mind to change what I was feeling, to pretend I felt rosy. “I will change my story, I will change negative to positive,* I will change my feelings, omg, omg I don’t want to feel sad!” These thoughts came from a fearful place. And of course, that never works.

I never come to a better-feeling place at either extreme, especially when the dominant force running the show is big ol’ fear. Neither denying feelings nor losing myself in them works.

Best to acknowledge the emotions, tip the hat, then choose. Hello sadness. Oh, hi there, fear. Welcome to the party. Now what’re we gonna do at this party? Let’s decide.

So I told myself, “Ok, you feel like crying? Cool. Let it out. But first tell me this: After we’re done with that, what’s going to feel fun to do?”

A movie. That felt like a GREAT idea. That felt like a BLAST. Thinking of it filled me with anticipation, the good kind. A fun, colorful, utterly mindless movie. Awesome.

The feeling of sadness was still there so I laid down on the couch with my puffy pillow and fluffy blanket and cried and cried. In five minutes or so it flowed right through me and out. Then I got up, grabbed my DVD, and popped it in. Yaay!

This felt great.

My two cents:

If “negative” emotion arises, don’t criticize yourself for feeling it … or fight against it … or think you should not feel. If something unexpected plops down in your path, don’t worry about having attracted it. Use it as guidance.

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“Always things are coming to you to assist in this expansion … Did you attract the problem or did you attract the solution? Did you attract the question or did you attract the answer?”


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Abraham-Hicks Emotional Guidance System Scale

*Check yourself before you wreck yourself:

It’s unlikely that you can leap  from fear to joy. (Got superhuman powers you didn’t tell us about?) Check out fear, waaaaay way down there at the bottom.  “What will feel just a little bit better?” is all you need to do. Just that little feeling of relief. That’s what I’m talkin’ ‘bout.  🙂

Much love to you, my friends!

Thank you for being on this journey with me!


  1. Beautiful thoughts by a beautiful girl who is on a journey of discovery. I’m here for you and with you on this wonderfully crazy journey…

  2. Jeannine Little says:

    Dear Colleen,
    I am so grateful to you for reaching out to me when I felt so sad. After looking at what you wrote I was able to identify some of the emotions that led to my sadness. I agree that fear is at the base of the so called “negative” emotions. I will refer to what you have in your blog to help me when the feeling of sadness comes up again.
    I do feel that it is great to have spiritual guidance but it is also important to have a support network when we are going through some of these deep emotions. Once again, thank you for being you. This is a path for the brave of heart! Love and light!

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