Body Talk

Scared M&M guy

These symptoms are so cray-cray! In addition to the other stuff, my heart has been acting up too and that part has been scary for me.

That said, I’m ok being on this magical, mysterious adventure of growth and transformation and sharing … and, as always, I am learning a LOT.

On the way in to the doctor, my body ‘n me had a little chat …

It was feeling terrible so I asked it,”What are you trying to tell me here? What do you need?”

What a fascinating conversation ensued!

I asked what the pain looked like. It was a tangled bunch of thick metal rope, like cables in my belly.

I asked “Would you like to untangle? You don’t have to but if you’d like to you can.”

I envisioned pouring soothing liquid all over the tangled cables.

I then saw the pain in my head and gave it a fluffy bunny rabbit. (My favorite soothing thing. Bunnies are sooooo healing … to me, at least! What feels healing to YOU?)

scared-m&mBack to my belly. In there I saw this lil’ guy, like a cute M&M character … y’know, with the arms and the legs? He was hangin’ on, scared ‘n being tossed around a bit in the cab.

He was sayin’ that the doctor won’t be able to help him and he was afraid.

I gave him the fluffy bunny to hold onto and he sat with his feet straight out, arms wrapped around the bunny and that felt comforting.

This whole thing I just described felt so very soothing.

Note to self (and to you, my beloved reader-friend!) …

Envisioning the pain … Not calling it bad but just noticing … Where it is, what color, size and shape it is … What it feels like, what it looks like … What it’s saying and what is needed in order to sooth or heal it … This is very useful.

PS: Wanna hear somethin’ funny?

The neurologist asked me to remember these three things and in a few minutes he’d ask me again, right?

So he says “One, Ohio … two, (something else which I can’t remember) … and three, a red balloon.”

Then he asks me all of these math questions and has me put my arms up and down and all this and then asks me to tell him the three things.

I say, in all seriousness …

1. Ohio
2. I can’t remember
3. somethin’ about fluffy bunnies?

I laugh when I think of it because I’m tellin’ you guys, I was so sure that he said somethin’ about fluffy bunnies! When he told me it was a red balloon, it rang a bell but prior to his reminding me, I had no clue.

Fluffy bunnies! lol He musta thought either I was joking or I’d lost my damned mind!

Love and hugs,


  1. Thanks Col for sharing this technique!!
    I loved it!I´ll try it and let you know the results.

    Once you give your pain a shape it’s easier to handle it and to transmute that energy to disappear the cause too. Working that way you are actually working on the cause of the pain as well and that is great.
    Thank you Col!!

    • Love your insights, Hector! So deeply appreciative of your role in my healing process, my precious friend!

  2. Susanne Seeger says:

    This is the best insight ever just read your post the second time and my nose starts running like crazy :o) Just knowing that your little M&M is having a fluffy bunny friend and is not alone anymore makes ME even comfortable. I will surely try it for myself …. I fall for bears especially Polar Bears because the are very strong and smart but still fluffy too :o)
    Col, thank you for sharing all those things it makes a huge difference or at least in my humble life!
    Lots of love and a bear hug your way,

  3. Julia Goldstein says:

    Hi Col,

    This is the first time that I was guided to your website. It’s beautiful.

    In reference to this blog, I asked the pain in my head today why it is here and I knew immediately that it is from my fear and need for things to be a certain way, i.e. my constricting and limiting thoughts. What do I need to be free of the pain? To know all is well. I can step out of the drivers seat and even stop giving directions as to how things need to be or should be. I can be part of the flow of life …along for the ride. And when seemingly unfamiliar scenery presents itself to me in the form of change with an unknown future, I can approach it with wonder and excitement instead of fear and control and know that even the unknown is still be part of the unified, “meant to be” whole. Nothing is extra, nothing is wasted.

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